Catch your Glow

So... by now I know most of us have heard the term "Glow Up" It can have several meanings based on who is interpreting it. To me the "Glow up" wasn't about my clothes, my make-up (which was really bad in my early 20's btw) or even my hair choices;it was more of an internal evolution that gave me a natural glow. I believe in the transfer of energy, I've allowed myself to become consumed in my growth. I had to discover what gave me the good vibes I've been seeking. As I approach 30 I realize, everything I was looking for in the clubs, bars, social outings, was internal I just wasn't brave enough or mature enough to tap into it. Normally I spend my summer vacation traveling, partying, and doing as much turn up as I could. This summer I chose to get in touch with my inner self, spent a lot of time in isolation finding out what truly makes me happy, what motivates me, scares me, etc. The scariest thing for me has always been having too much free time, too much time to think used to be my vice because...anxiety. Getting to know myself was the scariest thing I've had to do in a long time. Recognizing my shortcomings and learning how to turn my negatives into positives. I slept a lot partially because I am a night owl, and because being on the new journey was scary and sleep was the best way to let my brain rest. I changed my eating habits, practiced better self care methods, exercised, meditated. One of the biggest changes was watching the company I'm surrounded with. It's cool to hang out with some people from time to time but I noticed how my energy varied depending on who I was with. Man that was a game changer. So I realized in one particular situation, who you allow in your circle can really affect your energy. I'm conscious of who I let close to me now in a major way. You can say I'm stuck up or whatever but my healing is worth more than spending my idle time surrounded by negativity. As my vacation draws to a close, I'm happy i spent time being bored, I wrote, I read and figured out what my mission is and It's exciting to have that kind of clarity. During this transition some people have it twisted. My mom thought i was depressed...no I'm becoming my best self which sometimes resulted in silence . I've lived so much of my life out loud, it was refreshing to just be simple and quiet enjoy the silence when possible. So my glow up wasn't about make up, (although I did update my kit a few times), I spent more days with my hair in braids, and no make up. I felt something I haven't felt before.....Free. I didn't have to put on an act for anybody, I could be as weird, as cooky, I can be perfectly imperfect and it's okay with me. That's my idea of a "Glow Up" good people. Question is, if you haven't "glowed up" yet....what's stopping you from potentially opening the door to your best self?

xoxo- Sam

what makes me happy and brings me clarity.